Monthly Archives: February 2011

Hero

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Every body needs a hero…

That’s a song… I think… or maybe the reverse of the song… Scratch that, I think the song actually says ‘you don’t need another hero…’ Whatever! But it’s a truth. Everybody needs a hero.

For what?!?!?

First off, let’s examine this thot for a sec. Hollywood reels of (literally) millions of bucks every year, racks in double of that. Why? Cos what they provide feeds the innermost craving of every human. Name the movie or production and I will prove to you that as long as there is a

‘bossman’

    the film’s got a hero. Even if it’s animal planet! Someone’s out there, doing what you’ve only dreamnt of doing and doing it with style! That’s what the movies say! (Forgive me, I jes finish’d watchin’ two of ’em type o movies) and this dude, whats-his-face sang it just right;

    I can be your hero baby

    There’s so much despair, confusion, pain, anger and pointlessness in this world. I’ve run my head round the whole shitnitz and I am yet to see the point! Psalm 127 says:

    It is vain for you to rise up early, to sit up late, to eat the bread of sorrows…

    That is the summation of it all. Like someone made a mistake and created this cycle, this mad rat race for evryone to get suffocated and die of frustration when they reach the point of can’t-take -it-no-more?!?!? Not so. Why? Cos I know my redeemer liveth! And he will not allow me to ‘see’ the destruction that is all over this sick planet!

ok, now I’m rambling. What was a talking about?

    There’s been a lot on my mind latelty and I guess it all boils down to one thing, which is not the topic for today. I am still talking about heroes and who needs them. This doesn’t apply to you in anyway if you are like super confident and ever sure of everything. But if sometimes, you are not just sure, or sometimes, you just need help, then we are in the same boat. But I got lucky. I got some real live heroes, and I hit the jackpot too. I met Jesus. I know I’m not making too much sense with all this babbling, but I know what I’m saying. Jesus is all the hero I need. And it took loads of time, trust and hiccups for me to come to this realization. He’s been a true friend, taught me a lot too, through the Holy Spirit. He really never leaves, trust me. I’ve found a hero worth believing in. I am not in fear that he would ever cheat, lie, or fall short of my adoration. And He’s sent me good men. Men who are tryna be like him. Men who would stand with me in the muck and walk me proudly to the top. I’m going to marry one of them one of these days. I needed a true hero, not the type that the movies create. I needed something that will keep. And I found it. Now I wanna be like that. I’m preparing for the next generation. I need to get my mind off myself, look more towards the big picture and be a hero to someone else. I can be your hero.

i carry your heart with me

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i carry your heart with me(i carry it in
my heart)i am never without it(anywhere
i go you go,my dear; and whatever is done
by only me is your doing,my darling)
i fear
no fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)i want
no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true)
and it’s you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows
higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that’s keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)

Edward Estlin Cummings

I love this poem! And I totally dig Cummings. I just hope he wasn’t a melancholic anti-social psychopath. With all the depth his works reveal… Says a lot about keeping your source pure. Anyway, hope you had a nice read. I always do, everytime I read it again.

Shalom.

Bright Stars

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Ok, finally hitting the big 3-0 has its upsides… and downsides 😦 One is that it again got me thinking. What have I done with my life? How have I handled the gifts I’ve been given? Have I done well? What should I be doing better? So many thoughts, lobbying to be completed, so little answers. But I’m grateful. This past year has had me on tether’s end and back. I’m not too comfortable with where I am but I sure am glad I’m not where I was last year!

Before I sound utterly ungrateful, let me say that my discontent is not with God. He’s doing the best he can with what I’ve given. Makes me figure that if I give all, I just might get all I’m looking for… Anyway, bright stars…

We are all bright stars! These words have been ringing in my ears for two days now. Remember that song…

Jesus wants me for a sunbeam
To shine on him each day
In every way to please him
At home, at school, at play.

A sunbeam, a sunbeam
Jesus wants me for a sunbeam
A sunbeam, a sunbeam
I’ll be a sunbeam for him!

I loved the song! And the white and red the sunbeam band wore. Though ‘they’ never allowed me join them, I always considered myself a sunbeam. And then recently, I realised I was not just a flash of the sun in the eyes of the dark, I realised, that even when it’s pitch dark, when it seems the ray of ‘my sun’ isn’t bright enough to pierce the darkness, in the midst of that suffocating blackness… I am a bright star! We are all bright stars!!!

We humans say a lot of things we don’t believe. Why else would we sing about the sky being wide enough for all birds to fly freely? It makes no sense to say it and act like it’s not true. We tell ourselves, there are many fishes in the ocean and we live our lives as if fishes were going extinct. True, there is climate change, but it’s not the fishes that are going out of fashion, it’s the ‘enabling’ environment for fish reproduction that is! So, if we fix the earth and stop global warming, we probably will soon have too much fish! 😀

Now seriously, what am trying to say is this, God is still in the business of making your life count! It’s not his will that is not accomodating you, it’s you that is acting anti-the will of God! God doesn’t want you miserable, useless or irrelevant. He created a world so vast, so big, so there’d be room for you to express yourself. We are all bright stars! The world hasn’t heard your song yet, seen your work yet, felt your impact. And it’s waiting. We don’t all have to be presidents or CEOs. We all want different things from life anyway. But in that thing that you want, that thing that you do, you can shine! You can be the best!! Why? Cos we are all bright stars! Me. You. And that okada driver down the street. We were created for greatness and in the hall of greatness, there is room for all! You can be Mother Theresa or the Great Napoleon… whatever you choose to be, be the best at it! Cos you are a shining, bright star!!

Shalom.